Its not fair, and I deserve better. I dont care how entitled that makes me sound, but I need to vent.
How come other people get easy passes, they can eat whatever and be off. And no, this isnt a fat thing, this is a dysfunctional colon thing. Im tired of taking 9 pills every god damn day, pills that cost 600 bucks a bottle that my insurance doesnt cover because fuck this nation. Im tired of living here. I hate the people, I hate the system. Its probably the stress of living in this dystopian corporate clusterfuck that gave me this disease.

I just wanna move to some place secluded, a place with trees and peace. I want it to just be me and a girl, alone, quiet, cut off the bile that society produces to suppress creativity and illicit productivity. We are all conductors, cash runners for the big ups, just that we’re given the illusion of freedom so we work harder.

It wasnt supposed to be like this.
It was supposed to be me and her
I was supposed to do well in school.
We were gonna travel.
Now I dont even bother to sleep, because the screams in my head taunt me. My soul just wants rest, i submit to God, if you are watching, please, stop this, just give me peace, in whatever form you want, Im just tired of feeling this pain.